Phew. There are tough days and there are TOUGH days. And today was TOUGH. TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH!!!
The analysis that I am doing and the report that I am creating has caused enough problems in itself. But I find it hard to believe that in itself it was enough to drive me to the utter frustration that I was feeling and to open up the emotions that were opened.
The only conclusion I am left with is that when the news was broken to me about my job moving location and I dealt with it so well. So well, that many colleagues and managers have commented on how I have dealt with it. And I seemed to leap through the change curve from shock to acceptance - I think I am now revisiting the bits I have missed and right now am suffering from the depression stage.
So there is really nothing left to do but dust myself off and go back tomorrow and tackle it head on. Safe in the knowledge that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
Bluebells in Ecclesall Woods
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