When I started this blog, I didn't set out any terms for myself - there were no rules. It was done to allow me to understand myself, support other and seek out support for myself. But understanding myself and my feelings is very important if I want to help others do the same.
But now I'm wrestling with those feelings. On holiday with Hubby, Special Friend and Best Manfriend (people that I held very dear to me). They are people that I know understand me.
Yet I still feel it necessary to release some of my frustration at them. I get frustrated because I want to plan and they don't. As I write this, I question whether it was really that important at all. Was it just a case of me throwing my toys out of my pram in an attempt to get my own way?
I would say I got frustrated because I wanted everyone to be happy, but if I'm being really true to my feelings, am I sure that was the case. Would they have been happier had I just left things alone to work itself out? - probably.
Fortunately these are really good people who care about me too and make allowances for my constant need to plan.