Best School Friend replied to my please to meet her for lunch today - She's busy! and doesn't really feel like doing lunch at the moment. What the hell am I supposed to do. With one sentence in an email she has made me feel worthless and helpless.
I feel worthless that the friendship means so little to her. Has she considered that I don't just meet her to talk about her woes. That I may actually have some stuff to share with her. Let's face it, I've seen her once since the beginning of April when she was very upset about splitting up her her now Ex-boyfriend - that's over two months ago.
Since then I've been on holiday, had a wild camp in the snow, started a career change, commenced this Blog - all stuff I'd love to share with her.
And I feel helpless that I know she needs help and support but I can't get close enough to her to even begin to understand what support I could offer.
On a plus note, I got a cheque for £100 in the post today. It arrives once every 5 years from a little endowment policy that Mum took out for me. Thank you Mum I'll add it to the fund.